Chad.

- I can't explain how had it is going on without you here. I never thought it would be you that would be taken so soon. You always had the biggest whitest prettiest most breathtaking smile on your face. I'll never forget seeing you at cheer practice or cheer competitions. I'll never forget the last time I saw you. It was July third twothousandten. It was the fourth of July cooking for the cheer gym. You were so happy and full of life. I admired you from a distance. I always have had the biggest crush on you. Since the first time I saw you when I was like eight years old. I wanted to tell you, even though it wouldn't have made a difference. I just wish you knew. I figured I should have told you, so I was going to. But two days before our first cheer competition you got into that car accident. The accident I wish never have happened. The accident that took your life. You were only eighteen. A senior in high school. Graduation just around the corner. I know your probably happy now, I just hate thinking about what happened. There isn't one single day I don't think about you. I always cry, thinking a thousand tears will bring you back. I hate that your gone. I hate that I never told you things that I needed to. I'll never get the chance now. I just hope you know I love you. I think about you everyday. It has almost been ten months. I can't wait to see you again. I miss you more than anything.
- Nikki

" If you love two people at once, go with the second person. Because if you ever loved the first, there would have never been a second."
   This quote means so much to me, not only because its smart and cleaver, but because its true.

Homosexuality is NOT a crime.

I absoluety hate when people make fun of others, expeially about homosexuality. It is something you just can't control, get over it. It is the way of life of people. If you don't like it, don't comment about it. People need to stop using "gay" as an insult, gay means happy, dumbasses. If your talking about same sex relationships, that would be called homosexuality. get terms right before you try to use them against people.
   I absolutely hate how people have to hide the fact their homosexual. They have to hide it from friends, family, everybody. Its ridiculous. It honestly is not a big deal who people like. you can't help who you are attracted to, and you can't change it. It's just who you like.
   I absolutely hate when people talk to or about homosexuals like they aren't people. They are human beings just like everybody else. Don't tell us things like " god didn't make you to be gay. " or "god hates you " or " your going to hell " or " its wrong " . seriously shut the fuck up everyone. i understand you may not like the fact guys like guys and girls like girls , but it is something you need to accept.
   I absolutely hate that people always tell me its wrong. it isn't wrong to like girls. its not a crime, its not against the law to be attracted to girls. its pathetic that same sex marriages is illegal. Its ridiculous and idiotic. i hate when people tell me god doesn't love me, because i couldn't care less about god. i don't believe in god. i don't care if you think im going to hell, because i don't believe in it. i don't care if you think its nasty, gross, weird. i couldn't care less what you think.
   stop worrying about sexuality , get over it and move on with your own life. stop worrying about everyone elses.